Posted By: mellers on
I weighed in this morning, one pound down on last week but still no closer to giving a damn about myself or feeling like I have the courage to get properly back on the plan.
For the last 3 days the words "You'd better go and have your binge hadn't you" have been ringing in my ears and I am at a loss for how to rectify that state of affairs. I don't know why I was expecting some sort of support when I admitted how low I was feeling to him on Friday night, he never knows what to say or how to say it, but I suppose I wasn't expecting that kind of venom.
Anyway, I don't feel like I DESERVE to be eating healthily at the moment. I feel like a huge fat failure and can't even bring myself to care about the state of my diet.
It feels wretched, but that's probably because it is rather. I don't deserve any sympathy or hugs or commiserations either.
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desperation, low