Posted By: mellers on
For week now I've been seeing an error on my screen whenever I try to look at anyone else's blogs. "This user does not currently have any blogs" Connect proudly tells me, despite me knowing this is codswallop!
Of course any of my connections are getting the same message with my blogs at the moment and can't see anything I've written, so even the last few die-hards with this site have stopped writing comments on my blogs. It's really saddened me up to now (and rather worried me too as I can foresee a time when iVillage abandon connect altogether and I los the last year and a half of my musings about my life! lol!) but I have to say that in the absence of the "private" setting where you can write want you want for your eyes only I am relieved to be able to get things off my chest without worrying about what people will think.
I am having a rough time of it. I came back from holiday (same anxieties - different location) to scary admin tasks and an even deeper depression where everything is upsetting me. My manager is pissing me off and partner can't do a thing right. I gained 18 pounds in 2 weeks (yes Eighteen pounds, that's NOT a typo) and due to a sore throat for the last 6 days have missed completing my last 2 training sessions on my journey to be able to run 10k non-stop.
I feel mentally and physically exhausted and see little point in my life at the moment especially since the "night overheating" (can't really call it "night sweats" as I don't seem to perspire just get really hot to the point where it is waking me up) has continued long after the 40 degree temperatures of my holiday and I am now convinced this is the start of the menopause.
Now I will never have children. It's over. I've run out of time.
Tags:
depression, anger, holiday, overheating
