WOO HOO FRIDAY
Oh my god it seems to have been a really long week and thankfully I've made it to Friday. I had a really bad day on Tuesday caused by people not doing what they promised to do and I finally decided that these people have worn me out. I have been harrassing them for weeks about one thing or another and I was finally reduced to tears, at my desk, at work and that was it. I have enough stress coping with my unreasonale depression which has decided that it wants to take centre stage and also with my JC's imminent chemo session and generally worrying about that without these incompetent imbeciles creating more.
I am getting desperate for a break and some me time but being this time of year, holiday is in very short supply - 1 day left, situation desperate! I just want to rest and recharge and get some sort of normality back into my life, which at present is as far from normal as I am from being slim!
Oh and thats the next thing - fat! Everywhere I look there is food - in magazines, in books, on TV and now while eating breakfast they have pictures of fast food on GMTV - I mean come on - how is a girl to stop thinking about food when everywhere she looks - there it is! Constantly in your face until it is literally in your face and beyond the point of no return! This healthy eating lark is all well and good but the thought of eating something nice an unhealthy is always looming in the background, waiting until you are a little vunerable - and then wham! It hits you and you end up with a ton of chocolate in your chops, eyes closed and close to the point of ecstacy and then the guilt kicks in - you suddenly open your eyes, realise what you have done and then the feeling of sickness overwhelms you but in the back of you mind there is a little viouce saying, well you have almost finish the bar, the damage has been done, you might as well finish it and then restart the eating plan tomorrow, after all on blip won't hurt! But you have to then admit to yourself that this isn't the first blip this week, infact nearly everyday has been a blip - the whole weeks has been one big fat blip - or should that be blimp!
At least I made it to the gym this week - although the bag of revels sort of smoothered any good it had done but the thought was there - and after all - its the thought that counts!
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