Sunday, May 18th, 2008, 4:22 pm
HI
I thought I needed to start writing again....things are so hard ....yet I dont know what to say ....
I am really worried about my operation on my hand on tuesday...I know they do thousands of them...and it is a an easy op but i am scared...its my lefthand and i have never not had the use of it....silly arent I?
I cant say I am totally depressed or hyper... I just feel numb....and confused....my head feels so heavy like I cant really think ...Its so tough to get a single thought out...
I havent been sleeping lately so I am back taking temazepam....I hate the stuff because it makes my back hurt ....I am not taking it any more it was only a short course anyway....Back taking the zopiclone....
I lost 7.5 pounds this week which i think is too much in one hit....but i was totally on the core plan at weightwatchers may be it was a shock to the system....Oh I dont know...but i know that this week I havent lost anything.....
I am not getting weighed this week because my arm will be heavily bandages for afew days..but I am going to weightwatchers to get my 100 pound certificate.
I want to lose another 7 stone and I want to do it with in a year and a half this time... I have to get to goal..>I cant keep being this big it is really getting to me....I hate my size....I am so angry at myself for getting so huge....I am such an idiot ...I was eating myself to death...
I am getting a bit obsessed with food...and I keep cooking..>I have so much in my freeze..I do need to eat some of it...before I do any more cooking.....
I have been to tesco three times this week...just spending money on food...I dont know why....obsessed by fruit and veg...Now that is stupid...!!!
I have been drinking alot of coffee lately...mostly decafe....just trying not to feel hungry.....I feel like sometimes I could just stuff my face....other times i dont want to eat....
Lucy and Lillie are still going strong...they are my little ANGELS!!! I love them to bits...they make me smile and greet me when I walk through the door ...even lucy is wanting a stroke when I get in....
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Jayne
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Wednesday, August 29th, 2007, 4:50 pm
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Monday, August 27th, 2007, 5:35 pm
Tried with pen....not too keen...
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Monday, August 27th, 2007, 5:02 pm
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I painted this but the watercolour didnt scan too well...It was from a beautiful stamp I had....
It just felt Peaceful and Innocent.....Not a care in the world.....
It's my favourite picture right now....
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Jayne
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Sunday, August 19th, 2007, 3:40 pm
WELCOME TO THE BEST SHOW IN TOWN....THE KITTY CATWALK...YOU WILL HAVE A MEOW OF A TIME.....!!!
(Music starts and the catwalk glows from the lights)
Lillie is wearing a furry beautiful grey...white and brown coat.....she is a cheeky little girl loves to play and chase anything that moves.....
LILLIE WIGGLES HER BUM AND STRUTS HER STUFF!!! AS SHE IS WALKING BACK....
Lucy is wearing a lovely sensual white scarf........she loves to hide and play....she likes to doze in the sun.......
LILLIE NUDGES LUCY AND SHE FALLS TO THE GROUND THEN HISSES ARE HEARD FROM BOTH GIRLS.....
(Lillie is jealous of Lucy she is sleak in design....and quite a minx....)
THEY BOTH WALK IN DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS....
ANOTHER TABBY GOES DOWN THE CATWALK.......LUCY AND LILLIE ARE BACK STAGE....HAVING A CAT FIGHT!!!
ALL YOU CAN HEAR IS THE SCREAMS AND CRIES......AFTER A WHILE SILENCE.....LUCY AND LILLIE HAVE TO GET BACK ON THE CATWALK.....
And as you can see.....Lucy is wearing a wonderful sparkly collar.....oh my!!!!
LUCY HAD A GASH IN HER NOSE AND IS LIMPING......BUT SHE MAKES IT TO THE END OF THE CATWALK AND BACK.......The audience is shocked !)
And here again is Lillie.....in her lovely sunglasses....oh my!!!
LILLIE IS ALSO WALKING WITH A LIMP AND SHE S TRAILING A BLOODY TAIL.....!!!!
THE SHOW GOES ON WITH OUT THE TWO SISTERS......
OUT SIDE THEY START TO ARGUE....
After awhile things settle down both girlies are black and blue.....Lillie lights a cigarrette...and puffs her way down the street........
Lucy is blowing her nose .....and wiping the tears from her face....
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Jayne
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