How much longer do i need to wait?
On the up side, my cycles are still getting shorter.
I'm on day 31 and I just know that the witch is on her way. I don't know when I'm due, don't know if I even ov'd this cycle, but I do know that I'm having awful cramps and I've been spotting the past 3 days so I guess she'll be here any day now.
I'm just sooooo fed up of all this waiting. Why did I have to miscarry? why couldn't our baby have survived? Why can't I be a mum already?
I know it's selfish but I want my babies! I don't want to have to wait til I get to Heaven to meet them - I want them with me now. I hate this. It doesn't matter what I want. What's done is done and I can't change it but it doesn't stop me from being hurt.
I was at my friends' wee boy's 1st birthday party today. I want that. I want to have my baby and be so proud as I show them off to the world. I don't know if it would bother me so much if she wasn't a single parent? Am I being judgemental (or just plain mental!)?
I don't want to wait anymore Lord Please, answer our prayers. We have so much love to give a child, my cat's are feeling smothered but I've nowhere else to direct it! I love David, and I really want to have his children (if that's not too greedy) - preferably all at the one time cos I reeeally don't want to go through this again! Please God. I'm on my knees begging here. Please.
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